Feeling aweful.

Today is not been easy for me. I had to wake up severeal times last night to help vince get back to sleep. This started at 11pm, 1am, 3am, 5am and 6:30am, all cuz i forgot to swaddle him last night. On top of that haiden and logan woke up at 6am so i hadgo deal with them. Just when i thought i could lay down and go back to sleep i couldnt cuz vince woke up for his 7am feeding, 7:30 his oatmeal, changed his diaper and laid back down. I then had to get up until 8am where finally i fell asleep only to be up by 8:30am to make family breakfast.

After the breakfast was made i got the kids and told husband time to eat. He refused to get off the chair cuz supposdly he is sick again. So i said fine then dont eat with our family. I set his plate back on counter and ate with the boys.
I then get stuck cleaning everything up, letting dog in and out and finally was able to get shower.

After shower i fed vince his bottle, food and started lunch. Handed my husband food and when i went into the bedroom he kicked me out, so again i just left his plate on the counter. He kicked me out of our room cuz some how i caused him his headach and didnt want to deal with me. I just eat my lunch, and he calls for me, i told him no i am done u deal with ur problem on ur own. He ate lunch then.

Then our friend came over. Left snd now i am alone. He still wants me to get him stuff like gatorade.

I am so sick of doing everything by myself so i snapped today. I am so angry and hurt, feeling alone or like a single mother. When i ask for him to help me out he just says do u come help me at my job.
Last i checked i didnt make the kids on my own, we bought the house not me. He then tells me to go gets job and when i say fine i will and maybe we could apply for daycare help so i could work he says no the boys need mommy and the house needs taken care of.

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Ashley
    03/16/14
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    03/16/14
    Ashley
    I know i did cuz i finally snapped at it. But now he is pissed at me.

    And when i sick who takes over for me. No one.
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    03/16/14
    Ashley
    What makes it worse is knowing my best friend i had is his anniversey of his death is on my bday which is sunday.
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      03/16/14
      Ashley
      Ya it is he died on my bday
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        03/16/14
        4Katie
        I am very sorry that you are having a rough day. Don't give yourself a hard time for snapping. We all lose it sometimes and we can only handle so much. I think that is sounds like time to sit down and have a serious conversation with him about how you are feeling and what you need from him. Big hugs!
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        About Ashley
        Birth: March 23
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        I am 25year old stay at home mom of 3boys. I am also married.