I've been having trouble with feeling "the blues". I have my son Paul, who's a major blessing and makes me so happy when I see his smiling face. In my past, I make mistakes, and that's how Paul came to be, but I'm set in purity now. Have been for 3 months. It's difficult for me, since my love language is physical touch. It used to be that I felt like I needed a husband and couldn't live without getting married and felt like everyone else was getting married except me. I'm content now. As a Christian, I understand that God has planned everything from the beginning. And if He has a husband for me, I really really wanna meet him. And if not,...it's okay. Just lately, even though I'm content, I've been feeling down about it. I would love to have someone there, who's like my best friend. Someone to worship with and grow gardens with and be silly with. Although I do have my son; it's not the same. I trust that if God has a man for me, He will bring us together. ...I guess it's the wanting someone to be there that bothers me...
My church is made up of mostly elderly people. Lovely people, but none my age. The Pastor's son just got married. Everytime I thought I found a good man to date...I just got hurt because he turned out to be exactly what I wasn't looking for. He misrepresented himself. All of my friends are online, basically. Everyone else is always working. My dad is at work almost all the time, and my mom goes off with our neighbor almost every day all day long. We go to a church for fellowship on Wednesday mornings and another church that night for Bible Study. Plus, not having a car makes it very hard to get out and meet people.
and thank you :)
i am sorry you are feeling blue. we are here for you if only virtually. Have you sought out any groups or support in your hometown?