Struggling to cope lately..

As much as I really dislike the father of my child for cheating on me, leaving me for another girl and quitting on his family and his daughter..I still care very much for me. He was my friend for 8 years and we were together for 4 years. It's hard for me to just think that he doesn't really love me anymore after all we have been through and apart of me knows he is rebounding, but the idea of him makes me nervous. Nervous because he is the type of person that just makes the world a terrible place (being a cheater, liar, destroying someone emotionally etc.) and he makes me nervous because he makes me sick to my stomach with the type of guy he has become.
I'm just really struggling with my emotions lately and I really miss him a lot. I can still admit I love him and that just goes without saying, but I'm also not ready to move on at all. Why did it all have to be this way, you know? :(

Just struggling lately...

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      4Katie
      It is ok to still love him and to be sad he is gone. He was a part of your life for so long you just can't let that go. It is also ok that you are not ready to move on, it is probably best to give your heart time to heal.

      Spend time with friends and family and try to have some fun. Resist any urge to get back with him because you deserve better. When you are feeling ready start dating again but take it really slow.

      Good luck and big hugs to you!
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          Its' tough when you love someone that you don't LIKE.. and will be a part of your life forever.. also when he "seems: happy with someone else.. its hard..

          Stay focused.. you're doing the right thing.. he's gone.. and that's a blessing.. and you will see it that way.. really see it that way one day.. until then, know you will get better and receive better...
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            Sending you biggggg hugs, Heaven!

            It's perfectly normal to still be "in love" with him.. you are probably in love with the man YOU knew.. not the man he is now.. and that's normal and you have every right to feel that way.. and confused too. It's also fine to not want to move on.. you don't have to right this second.. but you can work on becoming a happier person without him in your life.. and it will happen. Try to focus on your kids, your family and what you want your life to look like in the future.. perhaps without him and slowly build from there. Spend time with people you love and little by little.. his grip on you will ease and you might feel like moving on.
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            About Heaven Clough
            Current: Melbourne, Florida
            Birth: March 27
            On Moms.com since: Mar 22, 2014
            I am a single mom of a beautiful 2 year old princess, She is my life and my motivation and everything to me. I am honestly on here to ask moms about at home work seeing as dad is hardly in the picture and I have her 95% of the time. :)