Trying To Let Go Of The Anger.... HELP
My bf and I have decided to have a baby. Which I'm over the moon excited about. But here is the problem..... He wanted me to have one more round of the depo shot before we started to try..... Here are his reasons (all I agree with) we are trying to move currently and he is trying to get a second job. While I agree with his reasons I was very against getting the round of the depo but I did it anyways. Now every time I see a baby or think about it I want to cry and feel very angry towards my bf because of the waiting. I know the next three months are going to be difficult for me because of the guilt I feel for not following my heart on this. I just want to be a mom so bad that I just feel that with this shot I feel my dream was taken from me. And gave him what he wanted. ( which I know its not) Just knowing that I have to wait 3 months for the shot to wear off and possibly 3 to 6 months before I can conceive makes me even more angry. Does any mom out there have any advice of how to let go of this pain that I am feeling???
But to let go of anger, you have to have the understanding that what's done is done... there is NO undoing it and so you just need to ride it out..
Here's what I would do.. Flip, it.. USE this time.. that you have not worried about a baby to get ready for a baby.. to get your body ready to carry one.. think of it as get ready to carry baby boot camp.. Start to eat healthier, exercise, see friends, do things you may not get a chance to do after a baby... Get yourself in prime physical and mental condition so that when you do get pregnant.. you are so ready and have nothing to worry about.. Take prentals now and take really good care of yourself..
Everything will come in it's time.. and just try and think of this time as like a preparation for going on a trip.. a trip that lasts a life time and is beautiful and challenging and hard and tough and awesome.. but you will never get this time back.. This time with just you and just your bf will never be the same after a baby.. try to see it that way.. :)