Sending prayers up to help you cope with this loss Brittany. Please lean on those closest to you now. All of us are always here to talk if you need someone. Thoughts and prayers.
Oh, Brittany, I do not know the answer to that question! It is not fair at all, and I am so sorry for your loss! How long ago did this happen? Have you reached out to a support group? I know that there are quite a few that help parents who have lost a child. It's not supposed to be that way - children should bury their parents and not the other way around - but it happens more often than we think! Take care of yourself and your family.
I'm so sorry Brittany my heart aches for your loss. I have a 4 month old son too and it tears me apart just imagining the agony you must be going through. We are all here for you if you need to talk any time. I'm thinking of you and your family in this terrible time.