A post in which I rant about my husband.
I am losing it today, because my daughter's separation anxiety is somehow my fault. My husband isn't saying that, but I think he thinks it, somewhere in the back of his mind. He complains about how it makes his day harder, and in those complaints, I don't feel like I hear any concern for our daughter at all, and I hate how he can compartmentalize our baby into an annoyance. I really want to ask "Why aren't you a better parent? Because if you were a better parent, she wouldn't mind when I left her with you!" But I don't say that, because I know it's unreasonable. Sometimes I think it, though, wondering why she isn't more attached to him--he's the one who's hardly left since day one. And I wonder that it might be him, that he doesn't even try to relate to her...and then I step back and again note that I'm being unreasonable. Somehow he's allowed to say unreasonable things, though.
Pair that with him quipping that I better make sure to "take my prenatals today," implying that I look fat enough to be pregnant--in front of our babysitter--and OH MAN, I'm gritting all of my teeth away.
Most days, he and I are fine. Today may not be one of those days. Maybe I'll feel better now that I've written here the things that are floating around in my angry mind.
Remember he's a man.. with pride.. and then acknowledge that to him and THEN tell him how you feel.. :)
Sometimes you just take different routes to get to the end of your day. It happens. That's why this site is so great, we can vent as loud as we can type and there will always be a mom or 12 that completely understand.
I appreciate the fact that you step back to go over this in your head before calling him a bad father, or husband, or human being.
We all have these days.. it WILL get better. Hugs honey.