I'm sad

I miss my baby today. Yesterday was such a good day, we're hopeful that we're pregnant and when I was sleeping I swore I felt kicking. I woke up startled (if we hadn't lost my baby I'd be six months along) an immediately started crying. My fiancé wasn't home or able to comfort me.

I hate this roller coaster. I want off.

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    04/16/14
    i am so sorry for your loss. I am sending you a virtual hug so try and comfort you!
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        04/16/14
        Thank you, Stefany. I haven't talked to anyone professionally. I usually get what I need from my fiance. He's my main support system, but I work midngihts and he works afternoons. So we've had a hard time. But we're both starting new jobs very soon. Hopefully we'll have more 'us' time - that's been the strain here.
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          04/17/14
          8Theresa Gould
          The best advice I can give you is to let yourself grieve. Yes it's hard and yes it hurts but let those tears fall when they come. And they will come unexpectedly and at times that are not convenient. I've lost six babies and those mystery kicks are just a part of the grieving process. When I lost Matthew in 2004 at 18 weeks along I had a "vision" of a baby running across the floor, it was weird and unnerving but felt so real. My arms also ached and I felt like a freak because I had such a strong urge to hold a young couple's baby who was born within a day or two of finding out we lost Matthew. Hugs.
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          About Kimberley Marshall
          Current: Wyandotte, Michigan
          Birth: March 19
          On Moms.com since: Mar 30, 2014
          Two Angel Babies, first at 5w 3d, October 2013 - second at 6w 05/03/14.