Feeling a little off tonight. Found all of Kais hospital things, and man that hit me hard. Just flash backs of when I was pregnant and when she was born.. I have been thinking all day about our future. I kind of want to move out sooner than January. Kai is getting older and I want to have another baby sooner than I thought. I want them to be close in age and close in general. My brother was 6 years older, my sister was 5 years and the other was 3 years older than me... I was closer to the one 3 years older..but there was still that space where we couldn't connect. I don't want that to happen with Kai and our next one. I want to start trying when we are in our own place...when we know we are stable... I just don't know how to talk about it with Seth... And that stresses me out.
That said, my kiddos are six years apart and honestly they are very close. My brother and I were 7 years apart and not that close. I think it has a whole lot to do with personality and less to do with age differences.