Feelings--tough stuff

I am feeling so many emotions at once lately that I am NUMB. I am angry, happy, sad, disappointed, excited, scared, worried and stressed. I never know if I should laugh or cry. I may seem put together, and well rounded, but inside, I am a wreck. I am depressed. I am happy. It doesn't make any sense. I am on edge, and then running around like a crazy woman.
Today's news takes on a whole new meaning for me. I am worried about leaving Donald alone with my three children for 4 months or more. I am scared about leaving my kids period. I love them dearly, and I feel like sometimes I am choosing Connor over them. Will they resent me. I think my 6 year old understands, but sometimes, I am not so sure. This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Am I choosing him over them. I know this has to be done, but still.
END OF RANT. Sorry. Had to spill.

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Amanda HurleyFlat Rock, Michigan
05/09/14
Amanda Hurley
Visit, depends on finances. We need $1000 for one week. Noone can go with.
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    05/09/14
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    05/09/14
    Amanda Hurley
    Right now, I am having a hard time only seeing him once or twice a week. I am happy that I will be able to focus on him more, but it is going to be difficult leaving the others behind.
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      05/10/14
      Amanda Hurley
      We will be using Skype. Jasmine understands but the other ones are too little to really "get" it.
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      About Amanda Hurley
      Current: Flat Rock, Michigan
      Birth: October 04
      On Moms.com since: Sep 20, 2013
      I am a 28 year old SAHM of four children. Mr. Connor is my son. I am looking for some additional help for a permanent grave marker. If you would like to help with expenses or would like to send a card, please inbox me for an address and details. Thank you