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So....I've been debating for some time now as to whether I want more children. All 4 of mine have been CS. I have found a midwife, who is also now a close friend, in my new area that is more than willing to help me have a natural birth should we decide for more. Just yesterday the hubby mentioned "if we have more". Im just petrified of having another CS and I feel like maybe it would be selfish to want another baby just for the birthing experience I want....don't get me wrong I would be ecstatic to get pregnant and have another child no matter what delivery method but I'm over 30 now and my youngest will be 2 in October so I'm wondering should we??? or should we be grateful for what we have.....and if a surprise baby happens then great but maybe we shouldn't try for more??? IDK. Sorry for the rant. Its been on my mind a while

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4Ariel LaCosteCanyon, Texas
    05/13/14
    Beth
    I'm sure this is something you've discussed with your midwife, but if you don't want another CS, I would suggest taking a good hard look at what led to the others and deciding what your chances are for a successful VBAC. If a happy surprise happens, awesome - but I would think long and hard about your delivery options before getting pregnant if you are uncertain.
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      05/13/14
      8Theresa Gould
      If your midwife is capable and knowledgeable, then she will do her very best to help you have a VBAC. I understand your fears but I wouldn't let your fear of a CS prevent you from having another child unless you had complications to indicate you were not physically capable of another birth. I'm proud you have a husband who is willing to say, "If" they are a rare find, hope you know that! :)
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        05/13/14
        4Ariel LaCoste
        thank you ladies! It's great to get such kind loving support :-)
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