Wish this was one big nightmare

Woke up this morning to a phone call from a best friend I couldn't get ahold of yesterday. She saw on facebook. I wish this was a nightmare. I want the pain to end. We have a meeting to discuss options at the funeral home today. I cannot believe I am planning Connor's funeral, not his homecoming. There are so many things I should be doing. My heart aches so bad right now.

Amanda HurleyFlat Rock, Michigan
    Praying for you!
      I know nothing anyone can say will make things easier but we are all here for you and keeping you in our thoughts and prayers. Baby Connor touched a lot of lives. There are so many people who will remeber him and always hold him in their hearts. Thank you for sharing him with all of us. What a strong woman you are! Cry however much you need to, tears are healing and you have a lot of healing to do. If you ever need anything we are all here.
        I am so, so sorry you are going through this. I will have your and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I pray you can find strength and peace during this difficult time.
        About Amanda Hurley
        Current: Flat Rock, Michigan
        Birth: October 04
        On Moms.com since: Sep 20, 2013
        I am a 28 year old SAHM of four children. Mr. Connor is my son. I am looking for some additional help for a permanent grave marker. If you would like to help with expenses or would like to send a card, please inbox me for an address and details. Thank you