Instead of sleeping, I am wandering around my house. I have started to pile the clothes that Grahm doesn't fit into a pile that I am going to give to another friend with a 4 month old. I cannot believe that I won't need them. Ever. I was hoping it would help ease some of the helplessness I have right now. I have so much to do tomorrow, but I cannot sleep. I keep wandering around my house, like a lost dog in a city. Thank you all for being here. All of my friends and family are sleeping. I have noone else to talk to, no where to go.