It just seems like when it rains it pours. I'm trying to shake the way I feel or make light of things happening and I cant. I can't find a happy place anymore. I pray and pray but don't seeing anything. I know things don't happen when we want them too. But I need it now. It seems like I cry everyday. And I don't talk because I don't want seem like I'm complaining. So I hold everything in from everyone including husband. I just don't understand anything anymore.