Wanting another baby....

So lately I have been wanting to have another baby. I have 3 beautiful little boys and thought for a while that 3 was enough. I thought that my SIL was crazy for having 4 kids. I don't know if it is because my SIL has her baby and my sister is about to have hers, or what. I have been feeling this way on and off for a few months. I try to talk myself out of wanting another and if works for a little while but here I am again wanting another.

I haven't talked to my husband about it, because he will think I am crazy and that I only want another one because me sister is about to have hers. Normally, I can talk to him about anything and everything but this has me all nervous. I know I need to tell him how I feel but the decision that we came to when I was pregnant with Johnny was we were done. I didn't know then that I would feel the way I do now. I know his reasons why he doesn't want another. He hates labor, hates seeing me in pain. He is afraid that if we did get pregnant again that it would end up being a home birth (my labors get shorter each time and we barely made it to the hospital with Johnny). He is happy that we are almost done with the baby stage with Johnny.

I don't know. Just venting/getting it off of my chest.

00
Erin
    05/28/14
    Comment deleted
    05/28/14
    Erin
    I know I need to at least tell him how I feel. I have already played out the conversation in my head a few times. I know he is done and I think that is why I haven't talked to him about it, I already know his answer.

    I has only been a few months, probably since January.
    1
    05/28/14
    Erin
    I think it is that I don't actually want to hear his answer.
    1
    05/28/14
    Erin
    It's an absolute no. I am kind of holding out til my sis has her baby to see if maybe the feeling goes away.
    1
      05/29/14
      Erin
      I will definitely let you know when I do talk to him. I was going to mention it last night and tell him that it might just be because my sis is pregnant. But by the time he got home, we had dinner and got the boys bathed and in bed, he had fallen asleep on the couch. We can't discuss anything halfway important with the boys awake.
      0
        04/02/15
        Erin
        Sorry That I haven't responded ladies. It's been crazy around here. Long story short. In October, he finally agreed to having one more. So we have been trying since. Sunday I found out that I am pregnant! EDD is December 4th, the day after my birthday.
        0
        About Erin
        Birth: December 03
        On Moms.com since: Feb 28, 2014