Article: The First Time I Laughed After the Death of My Daughter
I haven't lost an older child, but I've had six miscarriages. The lastest being 18 weeks and the most recent last June at 14 weeks. Many of mine were at the 11-14 week mark for some reason. My 18 week loss was the most difficult and I lost myself in grief for a long time. I think for a long time I didn't know how to be happy amidst my grief. I know we all grieve differently, but it seemed like a long road for me. I cannot even remember how long it took me to laugh. I think it was my babies who made me laugh.
The woman in this article lost her daughter to cancer, I believe. She talks about "shades of gray", stages of grief and the fact we are never really quite the same after the loss of a child.
It's been almost 10 years since I lost Matthew and I am just starting to feel more like my old self. It took a long time.
Have you ever been lost in grief? Was it hard to laugh the first time?
I grieved after I got divorced. I grieved after the loss of each of my grand parents. As far as laughing though, I don't think i stopped doing that, I might have really lost myself to the grief if I hadn't tried to deal with my sadness with some humor. Understandably that would be almost impossible with the loss of a child though.