Going Crazy All Over Again?
I don't know what's wrong with me lately.
I'm tired almost all the time, have random pains in various places, my right leg has been bugging me...but that's not the part that annoys me the most! It's my emotions! I get angry at the drop of a hat! I don't know why. One wrong, tiny moment, and I'm ticked all over again for hours and I get snappy, quiet, and just don't want to be bothered for -anything- but I can't be that way around Nina because she won't understand that Mommy isn't feeling up to playtime right now, so I have to pretend to be happy-face and play with her long enough for her to wander back to her own stuff. I just want some way to somehow vent all of this random anger without yelling at anyone like I want to. My husband noticed it last week and proceeded to torture and tickle me until I got so unbearably mad at him that I burst into tears for a while while he just cuddled with me and let me cry, even encouraged me to cry as much as needed. I didn't want to cry, didn't feel the need to until that anger became too much! I was so mad at him for being right about me feeling better after crying.
I'm not pregnant, lol...that was one of my first thoughts. Yeah, I'm on the pill, yeah I've bled regularly, but HEY, I did last time I was pregnant, too! I'm not, though. Took about 6 tests to make sure...
I just want to feel happy and normal again. Doesn't help that Trevor's leaving very soon, and I don't want to face that loneliness again for months and months until he's back.
Sorry for the rant.