heart strings tugged-- vent
When I met my love almost three years ago he had recently gone through a tragic time loosing the mother of his handsome son. His son, our son, is turning 5 this year. I have watched him grow, learn, live. he wasn't but 1.5yrs old when his biological mother passed away, too young to actually remember. However, if that was my child i would still want them to know about me, so I talk to him about his other mother regularly. He knows he has a birth mother who carried him in her belly, and he has me. Last year we gave birth to a beautiful baby girl bringing our family to a family of 4. However our son has an older sister, that until the mother passed away had never known her biological father, now she lives with him. This past year we started getting her for school breaks and now for the whole summer. We love her so much and she is a part of our family. We dont use the word step mom or step kids in the house because to us thats not the case. The two older kids almost 8 and almost 5 just know that they are blessed to have more than one mom.
The problem that we are having now is that the older daughter asks me everyday if she can live with us. She says she never wants to go back to her daddy. Everyday i have to explain to her why we cant let her live here and how much her daddy would miss her too. It is heartbreaking having to tell her and her brother why she cant live with us and then listening to them cry and seeing the sad look in their eyes. Its not a situation where we believe she is being mistreated in anyway, i think its more being around her brother and of course little sister and a mother figure. Her wanting to stay with us is partially why until this past year her dad wasnt letting us have her any so its not like i can say anything to him. plus how would you even bring that up? She has some problems in school but when she stays with us and then goes back to school her dad tells us she does a lot better atleast for a little while.
I think my heart just has some strings being tugged when she talks about staying with us and there isnt anything i can do. thanks for reading my vent lol.