Article: The no guilt Epidural
There are mama's out there, we've all experienced them or maybe even know them, that feel natural birth is the best way and they feel they have some sort of superiority to mama's who want the drugs. I'm here to say that this is a bunch of bull crap. Every mama who gives birth is amazing, no matter how she got that baby out of her!! My friend had an all natural birth and she's amazing for it!!! I had an epidural before the pain even started and I'm amazing for it!!! Why? Because in the end we both got our beautiful baby boys anyways. This article tells you that no matter how that baby gets out, DO NOT FEEL GUILTY. Some woman are born to deal with that kind of pain and some women (like me) are born complete whimps. It doesn't matter. We all get our beautiful blessings in the end. :)
Then they rolled me over to check something and the needle got jostled. For whatever reason all of the numbness was redirected to the lower half of my left leg. I could feel EVERYTHING and my left leg was completely dead weight. It hurt so bad that I was throwing up. It was like that for a few hours! Finally the nurses decided I was loosing it and needed to start pushing. I just wanted that baby out and I probably rushed the pushing process, causing 3 small tears. It was terrible. I don't remember hardly anything about the actual birth of my daughter because I was in such a heavy fog of pain. They handed her to me and I hardly registered that she was there at all. In fact, the only part of my 21 hours of labor that I remember clearly was when I was on the epidural.
Next time I will do the same thing. I'll make it as far as I can and then get the epidural. Natural birth was not an amazing, holy experience for me. In fact, I feel a bit cheated that I didn't get to be mentally present for my daughter's birth. I will, however, take a class to help me better manage the pain just in case the epidural doesn't work out again.