My closest aunt died on Saturday
My mom's oldest sister is/was one of my closest aunts. I helped her after surgery, visited her over vacations, she took all her nieces and nephews places and spoiled us and sent us home! :) She was 71 and I haven't seen her since 2005, but she'd call me and I'd call her but in recent months I haven't called because my mom said her mind was starting to go and I was afraid she wouldn't remember me. Now that she's gone, I feel guilty for not calling. What did it matter if she didn't remember me? I could still be there for her!
My family has been posting photos on Facebook and each time I see them I start crying. My other aunt (mom's sister, she has five sisters) sent me a photo of Auntie J and I when I was younger, it's adorable and I started blubbering again. Grief is a nasty beast and sometimes I think it's harder when you are farther away from loved ones because I am missing out on grieving with everyone else, but maybe it's just in my head.