GUILTY!

I hate Guilt... Parental guilt is one thing, but I'm used to that... There is a constant list of things I should be doing.. From the 7 "jobs" I have to emailing to target to calling a friend... I always feel behind.. always.. and I hate it...

A good friend hired me to do some marketing... and I'm behind. I took on too much, but needed the money and in my perfect head, I had it all figured out, but then the days go by so fast and all of a sudden it's 2 and I have to get my kids and then I can get about an hour in once they're home and then.. blah blah.. .

The guilt comes from knowing that I could do better. I could do more. I SHOULD put kids to bed and get right back to work, but I'm so exhausted I end up doing dishes and then watching a show and then.. I just can't...

I hate it... So, off I go... I must get it done... And it's a friend.. shit.. I don't want to let her down... crap, crap, crap...

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    08/30/13
    Jessica, take a break! We are all in such crap all time, but it's not the reason to feel guilty! You're don't have to be perfect - you are cool as you are).
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      08/30/13
      PHEW! Thank you, thank you... I did what I could and it wasn't enough, but it was a first week at something I have NEVER done. and I told my friend, look.. This is what I was able to do, we can give me time with the learning curve... or not. it's like a sales/marketing thing.. .NOT up my alley, but I'm willing to try..

      But you're all so right. I am so the YES person and then I have a constant feeling of worry that I may let someone down.. But, I have to realize that no one is going to NOT like me or be my friend because of it.. It's so strange to me how we can do that..
      I should just say no all together.. Shit.. My energy on it would be used on my writing...

      THANK YOU!!!!
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        08/31/13
        8Theresa Gould
        Glad it worked out for you.

        I've been working on not taking on more work than I can handle, it's been a learning curve to figure out how much is enough, but I also hate that guilty feeling and rushing a job instead of doing my best.
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        About Jessica
        Born: Novato, California
        Current: Sherman Oaks, California
        Birth: May 28
        On Moms.com since: Aug 5, 2013
        We live in Los Angeles, CA. I'm a writer, comedian, actor and single mom of two. Parenting is hard. I try to keep a sense of humor about it all and find the find the funny... in what is most likely NOT funny (i.e. boogers, meltdowns, homework, etc.).