I've been kinda MIA..
This last miscarriage kind of destroyed me. Starting 04/30, I started feeling funny..I was about 6 weeks along. On 05/03 I started bleeding, a lot - and hurting A LOT.
On 04/30 My fiance started a midnight job, so I was alone 12 hours every evening. I spent two nights going back and forth to emergency rooms trying to save my baby. On 05/02 they told me my hcG was down to 4.6...it was over. My heart broke.
Since then my heart has been slowly healing. Steven took a new job with a VERY similar schedule to mine. We've continued to try... as of the beginning of July it's been 9 months and two miscarriages. I have an appointment with the OB/GYN on the 16th - What would have been my first check up at 18 weeks (ish), only so late because I made a point to see one of the best in the area. Now it's a consulation to figure out why I'm not getting pregnant. Steven is going with me. He;s been so much more sensitive since the miscarriage. I think it's so important for him to go even though we're fairly sure he's not the 'problem'. We can conceive I just can't carry...
Thank you for all the support you have all given me. I am sorry I haven't been around, I feel like I'm disappointing you guys but i needed time away from baby talk and other moms in general and I know that might be hurtful. I'm really sorry..
Rest in Peace, my little angel. 05/03/14.