agian please no judging. I don't have these thoughts all the time, but more n more recently. Have you ever wondered what it would be like if you waited to have kids? What life would be like then, like less stressful. I've actually never had these thoughts until I got pregnant. I wonder if it's normal? Some days I literately try n find someone to take them so I can be alone. If ur not following me, my kids are pretty much five n three. Sad but true when I was in the hospital i thought of my kids n how they were doing but not often. I didn't exactly miss them. I've also had only like five over nights where my kids are away from me a night or two sense I had my daughter almost five years ago. I feel horrible, usually moms miss their kids n can't wait to see them. Not me.. Does anyone else actually look forward to being alone? Or am I just as horrible as I feel?