so I'm supposed to have my baby within a couple weeks. This is my first pregnancy where I wasn't compleatly attached to my baby. Like I care n I no I'm having a baby but I'm not focused or excited about it. Yeah I can't wait to have it, n sure I will love it. I don't no why I feel like this. I mean read my other posts.. What's wrong with me? I have almost everything the baby needs, except a bed. Nothing is organized or put together. I honestly should be on bed rest sense I've been having contractions. Hard with other kids though. Any ways last I knew I had two months left, plenty of time.. Now I have at least five weeks. I'm being induced. Not a exact date yet. Where is the time going? How come I'm not that excited? What if I don't love it? Sad to think about, hard to say.. But how come I keep forgetting I'm having a baby n not like omg yay!! Now please don't think I'm a bad person. I'm not, really just don't have any control of my feelings these days. Mostly a count down till I get better. Can finally get treated for my high copper n zink levels and compleatly get over virtigo. But still, what if I'm really in over my head on this. Yes I wanted and still want the baby. It's just not as exciting as my other two. Makes me feel like a horrible mother yet agian. But this child isn't even here yet.
I've read a couple places that something similar to PPD can start happening even before you've delivered.
Best of luck, I'm sure you'll do great. You're not a horrible mother at all!