6 years today:-(

Today makes six years since we lost my oldest daughters father. It doesn't get easier with time. After six years I still don't know how to act or what to say. It's like a bad bad dream to me! I wish I knew what to say to my daughter when this day comes around every year, but I don't and I feel so bad for that. I think of him every day and every night when I go to bed. I can have a whole conversation with myself about what I should be saying to her to the point I can't sleep, but for some reason I can't get it to come out my mouth to her. I really hope she knows how much I miss him and that I haven't forgotten about him..I am not good at dealing with death.

    8Theresa Gould
    I'm so sorry for both your loss. Have you been able to talk about him throughout the six years?
      Counseling might have to be an option...And I try and make sure I bring him up in conversations as much as possible. And I tell her how proud her dad would be of her.We have went to his grave site a few times, but it's so far away we can't make it very often. I have mentioned before especially at the grave sight that it was hard for me to know what to say or do..We have sent off a balloon a few years ago with a letter attached from each of us that we both wrote to him. and I've gotten a cake a couple times on his birthday that we could take the time out to remember him without really having to talk if she didn't want to.But it hasn't been anything consistent. I am kinda all over the place with doing stuff.I feel like I should be doing or saying more.And she doesn't talk about him and that worries me and makes me wonder if it's my fault
      About Melissa
      Born: Newport, North Carolina
      Current: Newport, North Carolina
      Birth: August 14
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      a stay at home single mom of two girls. Dashawna who is 15 (the big 16 on the 16th of this month) and Kayla who is 8..I love my girls with everything I have!