I am very upset :(

I have been breastfeeding my son since he was born. I had to stop because I ended up having emergency gallbladder surgery. I was in the hospital for a week, all I could do was pump and dump. I was so sad and mad that I had to stop nursing. When I got home , I still couldn't nurse because I was still taking pain medicine. Now after trying to nurse again I couldn't do it. It was painful , and stressful. So I ended up keeping him on formula. Well he is allergic to the formula, and had to be switched to prosobee formula. Now it cost more, and is smelly. I hate formula feeding, but I just can't go through the beginning of nursing again, it was very emotionally and physically exhausting. I am glad I breastfed for 2months, but I wanted to go longer. I feel like I am looked down upon because of it. If I didn't have that emergency surgery then I would still be nursing. He is healthy, weighs 13lbs 13oz and 24inches long as of today. Am I a bad mother for not trying to start breastfeeding again??

I am very upset :(
About Alyssa
Current: Ormond Beach, Florida
Birth: March 29
On Moms.com since: Feb 28, 2014
I am a Single mom to a beautiful baby boy who was born on July 23rd 2014. He is my whole world, my reason for still being alive. He is my heart.