The sorrow is taking over

I know I'm not happy and I try to ignore it and push it aside but try as I might, I can't deny these tears that try to peek out from behind my green eyes.

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AnnaRidgewood, New York
    10/06/14
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    10/06/14
    Anna
    Oh Laura, I guess it could be life. I hate where I moved, this house is to small, I miss my rabbit that died almost 3 weeks ago, my 8 year old son might have ADHD and it is so hard to do homework with him, it takes over 2 hours and my husband is a rude, inconsiderate a-word (he blames it on stress from work). It could be hormones.... I should be able to handle this. I'm stronger than the ball of tears I'm becoming.
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    Anna
    I can but he literally only understands for the moment. To him these things only last for the moment. It hurts that hours later he can discard my feelings and speak to me like I'm as "heartless" as he is. His employees call him heartless to his face. I'm not being mean. I'd rather not speak to him, he makes me feel worse in the end.
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    Anna
    No Laura, I don't have anyone I can really talk to.
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    10/06/14
    i would go through the same thing because my husband had a kid with a girl when he was 16 and doesn't allow him to see him anymore and he still pays support and he thought that I was going to do the same thing to him. he would talk to other girls and leave me alone at home and go fishing or other things. I would be balling my eyes out as he would leave and all he would say is your a whine ass.
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      10/06/14
      I went through this when I was pregnant with my daughter. I hated where I lived too I left my family to move out of state. I never been out of NY where I always lived to move to Rhode Island to be with my husband. With whom I found out in the beginning he was cheating on me. Well I was pregnant he would tell me he never wanted another kid which was very hurtful but I still stayed because I knew once he saw her things would change. which they did indeed. I cried everyday about everything. I didn't even want to wake up half the time. I learned to live your life for u and your kids. I am hear if u need someone to talk to outside of this website. Sometimes it is always nice to have someone to talk to about it. It helped me a lot to talk to someone who went through the same things. I hope things have gotten better for u.
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      10/06/14
      Anna
      Thanks Kim. I can usually deal with things by myself but I know its becoming something I can't deal with alone anymore because I don't want to go out at all, don't enjoy TV, just want to lay around all day and I keep wanting to cry at the smallest amount of stress. People think its easy to just, "get over" things or tell you to just "shake it off" but if only it were that easy.
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        10/06/14
        4Katie
        I am sorry things are rough right now. I know how you feel, things are rough for me right now too. We are all here for you if you ever need to talk!
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          10/06/14
          I am so sorry you are feeling like that...we are here for you if you ever need to talk :-)
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          About Anna
          Current: Ridgewood, New York
          Birth: November 27
          On Moms.com since: Sep 8, 2014
          Mom of 1, 14 year old girl and 2 boys, 12 & 8. I'm expecting the 4th in March. I stopped working because I'm a high risk preg. I'm from NY, have my Bachelors is psych and am in graduate school for my Masters in Applied Behavior Analysis.