ever feel like your doing everything right when eveyrthing wrong happens?
So, i waited to have my kids until i was out of college and ready. I am married and we are very able to support our children. But everything has been going wrong in my life! we dont drink or smoke, we go to Catholic Church, I am a good person! My husband has always wanted a son and we had a son and he passed away because i was to little to deliver him and he was born brain dead, and he passed away at 3, that was traumatic. so I can't even give my husband what he wants so badly! He loves our daughters more than anything but i feel like i gave him a son but I am so incapable and dumb i couldn't even do what a woman is supposed too! i couldn't even deliver my child! and i hate myself for that! and now my daughter has OCD and my youngest daughter has type 1 diabetes, and I can't do anything to stop it! it is so frustrating! I can't even have kids without something going wrong! I can't even have natural births because im to small down there and I would love that the most! and I feel like i can't do anything right! I just found out that this baby will have to be a C-section as well! I am so angry with myself!
Remember your husband is the one to determine the sex of your children, not you. He doesn't blame you does he?
At the same time, I know where you're coming from. I have blamed myself for a lot of crap and a lot has gone wrong. I would be happy just to be blessed with a child... It is hard not to blame ourselves for what goes wrong, but it's not healthy. Do you have any ways to cope or let go of bad feelings?