What kind of a parent am I!! Tears are not enough

Ok ladies I am just venting please understand me just a little!!

Ok so on Tuesday I step out my house with everyone Hubby, 3 kids and myself today is Sunday and we heading out and I didn't find my Baby diaper bag so I just took some diapers and wipes in my personal bag not giving the diaper bag to much mind, came back and I am looking for my diaper bag and it's no where to be found now I am getting upset and mad is a big diaper bag how in the world can a mother lose a Diaper bag like really a diaper bag who does that! Yeap I did and I most say I feel so useless, hurt, incompetent, just the worse person in the whole planet ( yeah I know there are other ppl going through worse things but I am sorry for me this is like the end of the world) I just hate losing anything of mind!!! I haven't stop crying ever since I notice is actually gone and will never see it I had my kids vaccinations cards my new born foot prints papers, and other things that for some ppl are useless but for me means the world and can't be replace!!

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Ever LopezFlushing, New York
01/11/15
Ever Lopez
I am praying I do I even made a poster and put it by my the building mailbox to see if anyone found it ..
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01/11/15
Ever Lopez
Right about now I can even remember anything I just looked every single corner of my house, closets, bedrooms, dinning area even in the bathroom to be honest I am just hoping I drop it by the lobby and someone picked it up.. but that's why I feel like this because is a very big bag how can I misplaced it...
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About Ever Lopez
Current: Flushing, New York
Birth: June 29
On Moms.com since: Jul 30, 2014
Mommy of 3 boys! Stay home mom , lots of adventures, And now a Team player (pregnancy) for moms.com