been abit since I wrote anything, but no one really cares anyway... a lot going on..... been going t thru some family problems... getting yelled out by rents. And I don't even live there anymore... so attention everyone....!!!!! Anything's g does wrong in your life...... having a hard time getting pregnant ...in the words of . My father Its my fault( meaning me) can't find a job .. my fault.. it's raining .. also my fault............. also since I got married and even more since I had my son2 and a half years ago.. I am excluded from everyone's lives.. just for getting married and having a kid.... left out of everything........ also found out a couple months ago my grandpa has dementia..... alone in all this( hubby is here but he doesn't want to hear me go on and on about my stuff) .. I have A friend that our sons have play dates but she has other friends she talks to about stuff and I have no one....done now ,.....BUT WHO EVEN CARES TO HEAR STUFF FROM ME...... I don't really matter anymore just a shell of a women.....

    Melissa Middleton
    You matter. You matter to your son, and even if you only matter to a few people, that is something big.
    I am so sorry your family is being harsh towards you--it's their loss, please remember that. Sometimes people blame other people for things because they do not want to admit not see their own flaws and faults. Try your best to ignore their ignorant and hateful words.
    I am so sorry your grandfather has dementia. My mother-in-law does as well along with Alzheimers. It is never easy. They finally had to place her in a nursing home because she aspirated and has other medical problems that in-home nurses aren't equipped to handle. I know what you are enduring, somewhat. It's heart breaking and a lot to bear, especially alone.

    I wished we live closer. I'm an excellent listener, and I don't shun people away. Know that you are in my prayers. If you ever need to vent, feel free to message me on here or try to find me on Facebook: Melissa Jean Middleton (Goodwin).

    Remember that you matter. Do not allow others to make you feel less than you are worth.
      You matter!

      I know it's easier said than done, but you need to find some outlet. It's not anyone's fault you aren't getting pregnant right now, you just aren't.

      If your parents have a problem with your family, then it's time to spend less time away from them because it will just poison your relationship with your husband.

      Sit your husband down and tell him, make him understand, you have to talk to somebody and he's the best man for the job.

      Use a journal. Sometimes men just don't understand, no matter how hard they try. I don't use my journal much, but when I'm feeling down in the pits and there's no female to talk to, I write in my journal-then I burn the page when I'm done so I'm not tempted to go back and read it.... Also it lets me get out things that may be sensitive, like how mad I am at hubby, my parents, sometimes even my kids, for something stupid-but in the moment it's frustrating beyond belief... It let's me get those feelings out, then by burning the page I don't fear that anybody will find it and take it in the wrong context.
        Marcie your not alone don't ever think that. We all have our shares of problems and challenges. I did, still do, everyday it's a struggle, but it will be part of my life forever, and the only thing I can do about it is to keep positive, find things to do with myself, my beautiful daughter and keep on living life and say FFFF to all those who are idiots. We may be adults, but really we are just big dumb kids fighting our way through life, and you have to just know that people say stupid things, do stupid things, but its your life not theirs that you need to worry about and live it to the fullest!!! Hugs.
        About Marcie
        Current: Akron, Ohio
        Birth: May 21
        On Moms.com since: Aug 31, 2014
        Been married over 3 years. Married to my best friend. Mother of a goofy 2year old boy and ttc for a girl.