I know a lot of women have had postpartum depression and for a while I thought I was one of those women. I kept telling myself I need to get help for my kids my babies they deserve better but then I got scared thinking " well what if the doctors think I am unfit mother because of my depression"? I love my kids immensely there is nothing I would not do for them, they can have my last ounce of blood if that's what they want. I read into postpartum and I don't think that's what it is. My emotions are nothing towards my kids its with everything in my life that has gone wrong, have been done to me , how people treated me and how I have been robbed of my childhood. I know I need help but im scared of the scrutiny of how I am a terrible mom and I don't want anyone taking my kids away.