Day 14 in the NICU

My baby girl is getting better, because of being on Subutex during my pregnancy, she started showing slight signs of withdrawal by day 4 of her little life. They then started medication (morphine & clonidine) to get her comfortable & help her sleep. As I sit here with her I feel guilty, then again I know I did the right thing by choosing to get clean the only way possible at that point in my life. Subutex saved my life and my baby girl's life as well. Neither of us would be here today had I not made that decision! So before you judge, really think about it...she is beautiful & amazing, and handling the taper very well, showing almost no symptoms at all, and this is going on day 4 of the taper. She will be home by next weekend, God is so good. Her father and I have sacrificed so much to spend every minute here with her & make sure our other daughter is happy and okay during all this too. Our girls are our world❤

Day 14 in the NICU
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    11/05/15
    No judgments here...We all do what we have to for our babies...using the meds is better than the alternative! Good job makin the hard choices and making sure baby is healthy :-)
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    11/05/15
    Thank you, I appreciate that. There are 5 other babies in here for the same thing, except they were born to moms still using, and using more than one drug. I understand the difficulty in quitting, but God gave me the strength the day I found out I was pregnant, to stop right then & there, & fight for this baby the only way possible at the time. She is laying on me as we speak, knocked out from her bottle. I did breast feed the first couple days, but my milk didn't come in fast enough for what she needed due to the NAS. Atleast I got to experience that bond for a few days, lol. It was beautiful!
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