I don't know what I need more some days. A nanny, a maid, or both. Hire a nanny so I can actually do some real housework, hire a maid so I can actually try to be a good mom, or hire both so I can have an opportunity to actually do some hobbies. I feel like all I do is work and work. If I am not at work I am at home working on trying to at least tidy up. If I am not doing laundry or dishes I am trying to be a good mom. I feel like I am failing at the cleaning and at being a good mom. It is hard to feel like you are doing well at anything when you feel like an empty hollow shell that might still somewhat resemble a human being. I spend so much time working or working around the house that I don't have the opportunity for hobbies which leaves me feeling hollow, empty. I feel like I don't know ME anymore.