weird mixed feelings.
i was having a hard time deciding weather or not to put our baby girl as a child on here. she won, though, because she was a real human, even if she never got to breathe or play or anything. i kind of feel super duper guilty that i even had to think about it. argh. :( i wonder, does anyone else have weird, mixed feelings sometimes about listing an angelbaby as a child? or am i a horrible monster person?
For me, in the real world, unless it's someone I know or knows my history I say I have eight children, but in my heart I know I have 14. Just recently I was referring to how many babies/pregnancies I had and said eight and my husband (very rare) corrected me and said, "You had more than 8...." He caught me by surprise as I sometimes think I am the only one of us who remembers and thinks this on a regular basis. It made me feel good for him to actually acknowledge it and correct me.