mini vent

There are no words to describe what I am feeling right now. I am numb. All of the doctors faces are jumbled in my head. All of the words and diagnoses are swirling around in my head like a pot of soup. I knew there may be problems with my baby, but this??? Now I have to see if his brother or sister can help him out. He cannot fight anymore on his own. Transplants, t cells, complete digeorge, it all seems surreal. I have to go home and leave my baby to fight. I have to be a wife and mother and don't get time to process, grieve, yell scream or cry. I have to deal with it. How?? By doing my duties as a woman. This is even harder than leaving him before his surgery for his heart. I am so numb. Trying to be strong, but needing to process.

Amanda HurleyFlat Rock, Michigan
    I'm so sorry you and your family is going threw this. You all are always in my prayers.
    About Amanda Hurley
    Current: Flat Rock, Michigan
    Birth: October 04
    On since: Sep 20, 2013
    I am a 28 year old SAHM of four children. Mr. Connor is my son. I am looking for some additional help for a permanent grave marker. If you would like to help with expenses or would like to send a card, please inbox me for an address and details. Thank you