The worst thing in the world is feeling stuck in an unwanted situation, and that is exactly how I'm feeling. I want to move away and start fresh, just me and my kids, but financially, I'm tethered to Jersey. Renting the 2nd floor of my sister's house has its convenience but, sometimes, I feel the price I'm paying for it is too steep. I just feel alone while surrounded by people and I'm tired. I don't mind things being about my kids all of the time, but the rest of my family is taking up more of my time than my children and nothing is ever about me. I feel repressed and holding everything in has become a necessity since letting it out would not be pretty. I guess I just needed to vent and this is the only way besides crying.