Confused

I am so confused lately. Am I strong or just heartless?? I have a friend going through a separation from a child (although her child is in juvy not a hospital) i can relate. But am I heartless that I can go back and forth to the hospital? That I can leave my child in the care of another person, and not cry? That i can leave my husband with my other three, and not shed a tear? I have only cried twice in the two weeks that he has been back in the hospital. Have I cried my last tear? Am I trying to be too tough?? Am I denying myself the nervous breakdown that I need? She cries every night for her child. I only have sleepless nights, and that is only when I am home without Connor. I sleep sporadically at the hospital. Why? Why can I still have fun when he is in the hospital fighting??

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Amanda HurleyFlat Rock, Michigan
    02/02/14
    4Elizabeth
    I don't see you heartless at all i think you are just dealing with your matters in a strong way. I don't think your friend is weak in the way shes going about her pain either. Everyone deals with pain differently it doesn't mean one loves their child more then the other. Maybe everything you are going through too is still such a shock still that the tears and pain haven't fully reached its surface. Know no matter what you are doing your best as a mother tears or not!
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      02/02/14
      Amanda my thoughts go out to you. You are a strong woman! You are doing what is right for you and what makes you deal with a tough situation! My prayers go out to you and your family!
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        02/02/14
        Tessa
        Everyone is different and I believe everyone copes different. Your a very strong woman and mother never forget that. I do think that there is such a thing as crying yourself out. I've done it many times. Just stay strong and do whats best for you and your family. You and your family are always in my prayers and I'm always here if you need to talk.
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        About Amanda Hurley
        Current: Flat Rock, Michigan
        Birth: October 04
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        I am a 28 year old SAHM of four children. Mr. Connor is my son. I am looking for some additional help for a permanent grave marker. If you would like to help with expenses or would like to send a card, please inbox me for an address and details. Thank you