falling asleep on their own
With each of my children, I have always rocked them to sleep, sang to them, and cuddled with them in my bed until they fell asleep. I have always been a working mom, so I wanted to treasure, cuddle and make them feel loved since I worked so much. So, I have always done this until they were big enough. My princess Rosalea will be 4 in June, and I decided it was time to transition her to falling asleep in her bed, rather than being carried there after she was asleep. I reasoned, that would be an extra hour of time I had in the evenings with my husband. I could read a book, take a childless shower, have some me time. Me time is something sadly lacking here lately. So, last night I bathed my girl, read Corderoy Bear to her, sang her favorite song to her, and then put her in her own little princess toddler bed. She cried, she screamed, she got up. I took her back to her bed. She cried, she screamed, she got up. I took her back to her bed. I sat with her the first time, the next few times I was telling her from outside the door I was there, and when she got up I didn't cuddle, I just put her back in bed. So...I am sitting outside of the door, and I hear low sobs....not screaming, just low sobbing. My heart broke. I went in to her. She cries, "Mommy, don't you love me no more? I just want to snuggle with my mommy...." My heart broke even more. I thought for a second, picked up my still tiny, blonde princess and carried her to my room. I covered her up with "daddy's blanket", wrapped her in my arms, and kissed her little blonde head, as I told her how much I loved her and how glad I was that she was my baby. And I held her until she fell asleep. Then, as usual, I carried her to her bed. Me time can wait. My baby girl will only be this size for a little longer. Before to long, she will be big enough she doesn't want mommy cuddles. So, I am going to love this time while it lasts.