Dealing with a death and Thankful for Friends and Family

I have missed all of you so much! It has been a rough few weeks and words cannot begin to describe how blessed I feel to have close friends and family. My mom is doing a lot better, she has not completely stopped smoking (I am still working on that) but she has cut back quite a bit. As a women who has been smoking for over 20 years I know it is going to be one day at a time and I have to maintain my patience with her.

Unfortunately, while my mom is doing better my grandfather passed away. My grandmother passed away last year. They has been married for over 50 years, and you can just tell that he had all but given up living as the love of his life passed away. We had all thought he was doing really good, he was keeping himself busy doing volunteer work and even joined a book club at the assisted living facility.

My mom told me something yesterday that broke my heart she said she felt like an orphan, even at her age she still felt like an orphan. It got me thinking about if I lost my mom I would be so lost. She is my best friend and the thought that she would not be around would absolutely break my heart. I wanted to use that time to try and bring up her issue with still smoking but it was not the right time.

All I can say is even though my heart is breaking for my mom and I miss my grandparents dearly, I am just so much more thankful that my mom is still here and I have so many wonderful friends and family here to see us through all of what we are going through.

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    10/10/13
    Oh Celeste!!!! So glad you're back!!
    My great condolence about your lost...
    I lost my loving granny last week and I understand you so much...
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    10/10/13
    I am so sorry to hear that. It is weird thinking that both my grandparents are gone. I remember when I was little, and we lived with them while my parents waited for their house to be built. I look at all of the pictures,and my mind is not really able to wrap around the fact that I cannot hug them anymore.
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    10/10/13
    8Theresa Gould
    Mariya, sorry to hear about your granny too. :(
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      10/10/13
      Oh Celeste.. first I am so happy to have you back! Second.. so so sorry for your loss :( Losing grandparents that you are close with is so tough.. I hope you can cherish the memories and sweet times you had with them.. those you can keep forever :)

      I can relate to you now.. if it makes you feel any better.. I have no living grandparents anymore.. not a one. And it breaks my heart with each milestone I come to that they are not here to share them with.. but someway they are :)

      Also.. my Mom is my very best friend too.. I would be lost without her.. So I cannot imagine how she feels.. just know you are her rock too and just cling to her as she might need to cling to you.. you only get one Mom.. and when she is as amazing as yours sounds.. just cherish every second with her :) xxo
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        10/10/13
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          10/10/13
          8Theresa Gould
          Sorry to hear you lost your grandfather, but am so happy for you that you got to be with friends and family even under the sad circumstance.

          Welcome back!
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            10/11/13
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            About Celeste Whitehead
            Current: Spring Hill, Florida
            Birth: August 26
            On Moms.com since: Aug 5, 2013
            Stay at home and work at home mom of two loud, crazy, adorable kids that are the center of my entire world. We all live together with the love of my life and the father of my children in sunny Florida with 3 of out four-legged kids.